There was something new, two nights in a row i suffered what would consider a nightmare. The first night was bizzarre to say the least. Recently I had been re watching my favourite TV show of all time with the usual obsessive behavior, as a result the dreams are as per usual kinda vague, I remember seeing one of the characters from the show working out with weights left arm free weight with the typical basketball shirt on, I remember being reluctant to join in as I had been considering joining a gym recently, but was embarrassed as to my current condition. The second part was in the bathroom of my place that I stayed with Gemma, I was speaking with someone and it was a sensitive subject, not a clue what it was im sure it was something relationship related and it was with a girl that resembled Debbie i think – not totally sure maybe Andrea? Then I woke up my heart racing.
The second one was the most distressing, I was doing my delivery job for a bit I remember biking it to a place right next to George square and i stopped, I remember it being all grey I arrive and stop, next thing I know i see gemma leave and walk down a street as far as I can think was the east end. I miss the chance to speak to her.
The following day I do the same and manage to catch her, she is happy to speak to me, she was talking about something which i dont know what it was, but remember clearly about “I didnt get it the first time, but the second time it got me a threesome” and it cut right through me, all the way down to my damn toes. Woke up my heart was going nuts.
Really weighed me down for a bit, difficult to handle life afterwards. Look forward to seeing the doc tuesday to try figure that horror show out.