I talk to you at new years day, had a bit of a problem today.
Had a couple of drinks last night, nothing serious simply to celebrate new year etc etc
Woke up today about 5pm feeling pretty nauseous, if that’s how you spell it. Most importantly I have had this horrific vulnerable experience, really lonely and isolated. That sense of desperation and attention has taken hold of me once again
Been checking my phone every second, I want the entire day to pass as soon as possible so I can get back to normal life as soon as possible. I don’t know how they do it, I haven’t left the house for a couple of days and gradually feeling more and more claustrophobic. I dont have my big computer to save me, my dad watches the news all the time which is about dead people most of the time.
Now they are both drinking today, it has exaggerated the exposed feeling that I experience.