Something that really scared me just then, i just finished watching a show called YOU which is based on a book by the same name. The premise is a guy that owns a book store, a girl walks into the store and he instantly falls in love with her. Has a charming conversation and gets her full name, afterwards he investigates her entire life to the point where he learns everything about her, stalks her just off the scale. Steals her phone all sorts of stuff. A fascinating story and very possible in real life.

Part that I am talking about that scares me is that I done some of that stuff, when alix led me on like she did it drove me to that point. I take comfort in the fact that I know its wrong. What scares me is that what if that happens to me again? What if i lose my mind again and end up doing all those crazy things.