For the sake of reporting more than anything else, pleased to say the issue outstanding in terms of my coaching has now been resolved. I simply stated my case that I do not wish any harm, it was brought to my attention that I had been warned about my conduct from a social media/communication perspective beforehand – I remember years ago I was with a club called glasgow girls and this points back to the emotional guy that everyone is having a hard time to get in contact with. I remember interacting with a coach from time to time, she would smile and generally be friendly – I remember that guy screaming out for attention and affection from someone! ANYONE!
I remember getting a phone call one morning about how I called someone a lesbian, generally I was very drunk from a night out and generally a bell end – I didn’t bring this up during my conversation as this would have affected my case badly. I have this level of paranoia where I don’t know what has been discussed with other people about me, which is murder but ultimately the issue has been resolved. I currently have stipulation in terms of coaching, only permitted an assistant coach role, probation 6 months and monthly reports of my conduct through this 6 month period.
It was interesting in a sense if was almost like they wanted to use the opportunity to make a statement, on the other hand in terms of me getting into trouble it happens too often. Whether it be conversations with girls/people and now this. Gave me a massive sense of relief that I can now get on with life, but on the other hand its an embarrassment as I know within myself I don’t want to hurt anyone, I know that I want to do the right thing and I am capable of the right thing. I just can’t stand this “idiot gillen” part of me that seems to cause all this trouble.