Following the conversation at the Doc’s I went to my GP, basically reporting that the phycologist is soon to come to an end, was looking to get something to help me manage the emotions better. The doc obliged and provided me something called duloxetine, I don’t know whether it’s been some sort of placebo but the difference in me is night and day, I can still feel which is the important part. Any negative response it no longer feels like I have had the air sucked out of my lungs, no longer does it feel like I have to write something dramatic on facebook to have a conversation with people. I was around my family and the anxiety wasn’t half as bad, I have been helping my parents the best I can and I don’t feel resentment or boredom as much as I used to. It’s all literally toned down which is fucking perfect. Even the prospect of meeting someone doesn’t press that “obsessive” gene in me anymore.