I have a difficult time, I was trying to have a conversation with my brother and he picks and chooses when he wishes to speak with me, decisions to simply ignore me are often made without regret or concern. One great one that set me off terribly was this
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Me – Nice to see you are listening.
Me – Like I said disrespectful and downright ignorant.
Brother – Okay dear x
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My anger just went off the scale, the lack of respect was so infuriating. I also had to make a late decision in terms of accommodation, going to stay here – which is disappointing from a money point of view as I don’t get to enjoy student loan like a normal person. Typically my life is completely different from everyone else’s. As usual I will have to survive and be on my own.
Past few days I have been having really scary thoughts, what if my parents were dead? Then I would really be on my own, no one actively contacts me on their own. I have to initiate contact entirely. Sucks.
I try and be a good person I really do, who knows.
P.S this is helping alot, I know its simply for my doc but really thinking about creating my own web site ha.